relations

i feel so... so bad for him. and for her. if anyone ever spoke to me the way that he spoke to her... i would not be able to keep myself so composed as she did. and for that, i give her much "props" and much needed respect. but he... he does not give any respect but demands all of it for himself. let me tell you this- i will give that man all the respect i can give to a person, if he would match up to it. if he came to the point where respect was naturally overflowing from me (or her) to him, then there you have it, sir, all the respect that you've ever wanted.

and where i'm torn, is when i think about God. why does my dad not know God? why do i know God and why does my mom know God, but not my dad? there is a weight on my mother's shoulders because she knows she has to "put up" with my dad a lot of times just because he does not have the same values and beliefs as her... and for him to look at us church-goers and Jesus-lovers with a skeptical eye can put all the weight on a woman's shoulders, especially my mom's. of course she would like to share with her husband how her bible study went, how blessed the morning's service was, which scripture spoke to her that morning... but she can't. she bottles it up, reads in private, and does not share because her husband does not want to hear it.

so i have to rely on God that much more... that He may grant my mom even more patience and understanding, and that He may soften my dad's heart and give him an ear to listen.

a christian wife and an unbelieveing, uncooperative, unloving husband. at what point do the two separate? or are they stuck under the same roof for as long as they live, or until their only daughter moves out? or is it for financial reasons that they are still together? totally understandble. but how "secure" and "happy" and "content" can you be, no matter how financially secure or stable you are, when the man or woman you are tied with does not see eye-to-eye with you, does not show love to you, does not communicate with you?

i am interested in relationships.
why some work, why some don't.
why some work for a certain time, and then stop.
why relationships are the way they are, how they form, how they last, and how they end.