time of transition

i think i might have avoided blogging for a while because i was afraid of what i would write.

tomorrow (well, today, wednesday) i will turn in my last BS-ed paper as an undergraduate student. my last paper, ever. i spent this summer catching up on my last credits so that i could graduate "on time" but i kind of.... just a tad bit.... regret having taken summer quarter. now it leaves me face to face with post-grad realities that i do not want to face. but come tomorrow at noon, i am there.

hello, how do you do?

i am easily inspired and easily influenced. this is why i must tackle the good inspirations and positive influences to rev me up to do great things in life, without being a lazy bum waiting for such things. tonight, i found one inspiration: P!NK, the artist, who performed a phenomenal song at the Grammys this past year, displayed such a passionate performance of her song, "Glitter in the Air." i've probably seen the clip 100 times by now, and pretty sure that i've shed a few tears while watching it some time ago. her face at the end of the clip is priceless.

i want that feeling... the feeling of accomplishment, that feeling of, "wow.. what just happened was amazing, and i was a part of it." i want that.

where do i want to go next? i have so many options in front of me.

i am so lucky, so blessed to have supporting parents. sure, they'll question me sometimes, but if i love something or have a goal, they are not parents who would block me from such opportunities- instead, they would help pave a road for me. i could travel, i could move.. i could go back to school, i could work... i could do a lot of things. the confusing part is choosing the door. which do i open?

i love the ambiguity and vagueness of not knowing. but society doesn't. society and people, my peers even, do not like people without a plan. but what's the rush? i am a mere 22 year old girl. i've got at least a few years ahead of me to do what ever the hell i feel like. as long as it's sound, of course. i do not want to become an irrational person.