rest in peace

my dad told me that today his mother passed away in Korea.

he said it was a good thing that i had gone to see her this past year while i was in Korea from August to January. i wish i had said a more sincere goodbye.

you just never know when your time will come... you only know that it will.

now, i don't have any grandparents. my mom's father died when she was my age, and her mother died a few years ago, along with my dad's father.

i'm sure it's like this with a lot of people out there, but when your loved one loses a loved one, it really hurts. i was never too close with my grandmother in Seoul, but to know that my father now has no parents, and no mother to call once in a while, just hurts me. the same applies to my mom.

i'm supposed to write an obituary, after i've supposedly lived a long and filling life, for a class by this wednesday. in it, i'm supposed to tell of the things that i (would like to) have done, and the things most dear to me, and so on. i haven't thought it about too much yet, but i suppose i should get started soon. it's not supposed to be a depressing assignment though-- instead, it's supposed to help us figure out and map out what is really meaningful to us and what we would have like to accomplished before our time is up...

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i got back from Boston yesterday to see my best friend graduate from BU. it's amazing how fast time flies and how things have changed throughout the span of just four years of life.

i guess i'm just in wonder and in awe of what time on earth really means, and how long we have. the only answer i can think of is that it is uncertain and we don't know.